allow me to complain

[clara_maria_home]

I have a cold, menstrual cramps and pimples
aka cant sleep well
glued to my desk ALL FU**ING DAY
I am frustrated when thinking about my future, almost panicked even
PhD sucks
but at least I sorted out my shoes last night and am now down from 46 pairs to 40 pairs
I don't feel connected to fandom but I am not even alive enough to care...
hungry, I want cake and soba but all I have are potatoes and sour fish, which I love but it's not  what I want and I don't dare to go out because cold and menstrual cramps and pimples
*argh*

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Comments

[barbosa2007.livejournal.com]

*smacks those female hormones for you*

40 pairs of shoes! Sorting things out is always part of organizing one's life, I believe.

I wish I could send you something useful but I only have this:

[clara-maria.livejournal.com]

those two ALWAYS help ♥

at the moment I am sorting out EVERYTHING! this afternoon I took a breather an sorted my jewerly XD - it's like fixing my mind into order while ordering my surrounding

(about the 40 pairs: I have some really cool vintage shoes from my aunt e.g. 1970th russian boots with embroidery or 1980th gray leather high-heel-sandals ♥ )

[nekobot01.livejournal.com]

*sends hugs from my cats*

*also sends cake and Arashi sparkles*

I feel you about 'disconnected from fandom' because I'm feeling the same. I think I'm not interested in the same things everybody else is... :(

[clara-maria.livejournal.com]

thank you ♥

the disconnection also comes from not being able to follow Twitter or shows or anything asap and if you come a few days or weeks later nobody talks with you anymore about it... AND I miss the crack to help, it's too much emo - and that I am myself enough XP

[nekobot01.livejournal.com]

Too much emo is no good... I understand. I can't watch ChocoJun because it's too much of unrequited drama and I'm over that. I'm waiting for Nino x Ohno dramas which should be heartwarming and crack, respectively. I miss heartwarming Nino~~

I have so many things I didn't watch but I was starting to feel stress from it and fandom shouldn't be stress. So I need to be firm and just take what I like and not worry about what I don't watch. *nods*

[clara-maria.livejournal.com]

I am really looking forward to Neens drama - warm, nice, baseball (me love baseball! XD although I've never watched it in my whole life... but Adachi Mitsuru-baseball-mangas are wonderful ♥)

and Ohno ♥ ♥ ♥

I am going to watch ChocoJun at once when I am finished with my PhD - it will be a dramatic overstupid rainy Ladies-day all alone in my room XD

[nekobot01.livejournal.com]

For a while I was listening to a Japanese baseball podcast from two American men living in Japan. They think Japanese baseball is better than the American version--more like cricket. At least that was what I got out of it.

Now, if there was a cricket manga... XD

That is a good plan for ChocoJun! You can watch with some wine and cheese~ ♥

[clara-maria.livejournal.com]

and Chocolate - I plan on buying some good pralinés from a store near my place and enjoy ♥

cricket-manga... hm, I am sure there is one XD because the have manga for EVERYTHING XD

[kajalmonsta.livejournal.com]

oh dear *hugs* if you need a breather, as in coffee or break or sth, just LINE me, i'll stop by! you can't sit infront of the pc all day, that's not healthy, so please make sure to take a break every once in a while. I'm starting to be really worried about you :/

and i understand the food thing.... i want kitsune udon! but all i have is tomato soup~

[clara-maria.livejournal.com]

it's better now - I guess mentrual cramps are transforming me into some kind of monster XD god I am so easily annoyed these last days :P but I feel better after letting it out~

I try to use my bike tomorrow and go to university - sitting at home for more than one week is TOO long XD

Thank you ♥